Almost 4 months have passed since Iven was born and if you asked me how did that happen ? I really don’t know. I don’t know where time had gone and I really can’t believe it’s been almost 4 months since we have this little pumpkin with us. When they say the personality of a child is shown since birth, I can’t agree more. Of course, I didn’t really understand that until we have Fiorina and now that she’s three, she is still a drama queen as she was when she was born ha..ha..! Her cries were high pitch and if you let it go on for another second, it’s like as if you’ve abandoned this child for good (I’m serious!) and still kinda is (the cry I mean). She wanted attention all the time when she was a baby. She’s very specific about certain things and want it certain ways and a little thing can trigger melt-downs. However, at the same time, she’s a very sweet and kind little girl. She loves her baby brother so much. She had brought so much laughters, joys into our lives and what a bright little girl she is (call me bias). I just can’t imagine my life without her. Iven, on the other hand, is the opposite of his sister. He is easy going (as of to date), always calm and his cry…well, I can barely hear him (or is it that I’ve been desensitized by Fiorina’s cry when she was a baby?). This boy seems content most of the time with exception when he’s not feeling well or he wants mommy’s milk. Other than that, this is one happy boy for sure. I’m so afraid to talk about this because I’m afraid I would “jinx” it if you know what I mean 😉 So, we have two children with completely different personalities and you just love them no matter what.
I talked about how I dreaded the day my mom left after staying for three months to help me out with cooking and taking care of Fiorina on my last post. Well, I couldn’t help but to sob at the airport (I made my mom cried too). The moment I saw her walked to the check point, my heart just sank to the bottom. Regardless, I knew I gotta be strong and with my husband around, at least I wasn’t truly all alone with two kids. A week later, my husband had to go on a business trip for one week. The night before my husband left, Iven had a 101.7 F fever and fussing from 2 am to 7 am and I, of course, didn’t sleep. When the taxi came to pick up my husband for the airport, my heart was pounding so quickly and I tried to hold my tears in front of him and tried to get a hold of myself and not to say “Please don’t leave me alone” because that would be very selfish of me to do so and I knew he felt bad having to leave me alone, but he gotta do what he gotta do. Off he went and I cried after he left. I felt so overwhelmed. I wasn’t sure what it was that I was so scared about being alone with two kids (two sick kids if I may add), but I sure was terrified and found myself about to hyperventilated if I didn’t calm myself. I took a deep breath and told myself “Everything’s gonna be alright. It will”. That week was sure hectic for me having to take care of the two kids on my own, but I was glad that it was an uneventful week. They are still having cold, but at least no one is having anymore fever. I survived this one week all by myself. After that, I really found myself somehow stronger mentally. I become more “efficient” in managing my time because I know I can’t afford to waste any. I somehow feel that it’s not that scary to be alone with two kids (I did make it sound like a horror movie). But, do I want to do this all the time ? Of course not ! and I’m glad it’s only once a month that my husband is away for one week. It really makes me appreciate and grateful for these two children in my life and for my supportive hubby.
And…. I’m happy to report that I did take shower everyday for that whole one week. Didn’t miss a day !!! (If you are a stay-at-home parent, you’ll know what I mean. Taking shower or even brushing your teeth is a BIG DEAL!).
My husband believes that nothing is impossible. Me ? Well, I wasn’t really a believer until I saw some of the photos and recipes I put on this blog are now being exhibited at libraries in different locations. I remember telling my husband before how nice it would be if this blog could get a bit more exposure and he confidently answered me “It will” and it sure does. The blog is also now featured in the local newspaper and I just felt so honored. It is such a great first experience and I’m so grateful for all the supports.
I’m still counting my blessings and I can’t thank God enough and all the people around me who makes me stronger and discovered what I am capable of. Life is good.